Reminiscent of forgotten memories

early morning rantings

2012-02-17T08:33:00.002+08:00

you woke me up this early just to hurt my ego. thank you very much.

this is how i feel

2011-12-21T21:58:00.001+08:00

-left out.

but then again, kathleen, hasnt it always been "i'll do whatever it takes to achieve what i want". so, dont complain.

Dont forget

2011-10-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

I'm the one who made you who you are today

I can take it all back; if i want to.

Dont forget

2011-10-07T21:49:00.003+08:00

I'm the one who made you who you are today.

I can take it all back; if i want to.

And you feel yourself suffocating.

2011-09-09T11:36:00.002+08:00

Just because you're good, it doesnt mean that you have to question others' capabilities and undermine them. :/

but this is supposed to be MY LIFE

2011-08-29T14:39:00.002+08:00

i've been living my whole entire life fulfilling others' expectations. My parents, my lecturers, my friends. EVERYONE but ME. until i've reached the point whereby i DONT KNOW WHAT DO I WANT ANYMORE!!

Everything's Changing

2011-08-23T11:36:00.000+08:00

gosh, why are people so difficult? - -

Heaven Knows...

2011-08-20T20:03:00.002+08:00

Life's been a roller coaster again. I feel like i've got so much things to do.. But i'm not within control of anything. All I can do now is think of everything as a challenge, NOT as an obstacle. Just do my best and let God do the rest (:

On a different note, WICKED IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!! anyone up for it?? ;)

Worth the Wait

2011-07-26T14:36:00.002+08:00

yes, guess who's back? sorry, i know i've been switching blogs and all but to be honest, i couldnt bear to leave this blog and all the memories within it and what's better, i could finally change the layout. I'm gonna start posting up old posts, from where i left off :) so yeah, i'm backkkk!!!! :)

So Long

2011-04-11T12:21:00.002+08:00

It's been really long since i last updated this blog. I just feel so lazy. With that amount of work to do and studying, i think i lost track of what i want to blog about. Things come and go, so do people. Hopes, disappointments, frustrations. All these used to be expressed in this blog but now, it's as though i am emotionless. I cant feel any feelings that was previously expressed through my posts. And there goes my inspiration.

somebody, just take me away

2011-01-23T00:07:00.001+08:00

why is this happening all over again?

will it happen for real this time?

the tears are falling down my cheeks again.

when the time really comes, will i have the strength to face it?

Dear God, please give me the strength, come what may.

Before the year ended..

2011-01-19T20:36:00.006+08:00

this was what happened. Becky and I decided to "tour" around KL for the Xmas Decorations while relieving some stress. My goodness! It's been such a long time since i've walked around KL and had so much fun - which made me miss the KL gang even moree!! Sin Mun, when you come back and if you're reading this, WE (KL GANG) MUST GO TO LOOK OUT POINT NEXT OKEH. :D and p/s: i've discovered the venue for my 21st bday bash! hehehe :)

so, here are the pics!

Kath and Becky

Christmas Deco @ Pavilion

Presentsss!! :)

The awesome junior aka swimming partner, Becky!

Michele "Marilyn Monroe" Chan

Kathleen "Marilyn Monroe" Kang

Becky "Marilyn Monroe" Wong

hehe. that's it for now, folks! next update will be on... (wait for it)... 19th Birthday and SKYE Catching Up dinner! :)

take care!

Mistake Number Two

2011-01-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

I'll take the fall
a twist I know
You just see right through me
it may be wrong
but all long
it keeps on turning turning

I could walk away now
end it perfectly
and just say your words are
not affecting me
somewhere deep inside
I know it may be wrong
but I'm ready to commit
mistake no.2.

The Space In Between

2011-01-05T13:15:00.004+08:00

Hello y'all!

Just in case you're confused as to whether i have ditched this blog for tumblr,

the answer is : NO.

and in case you're still in a state of ignorance, yes, i do have a

tumblr account: fairytales-and-sunsets.tumblr.com. (:

so, the difference between these two is..

blogger: long, random ramblings plus, super long, emo posts, plus events updates or for things like this.

tumblr: super short quotes of the day or short ramblings or random pics worth posting.

so there you go! :)

back to nerding. hehe. exams here i comeeee!! [=

Two Thousand and ELEVEN

2011-01-01T10:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

Indifference

2010-12-24T12:52:00.002+08:00

Never get over-excited when you hear his voice,

never reply his texts immediately,

never get so enthusiastic when you see him,

never over-thank him when he is being nice,

above all, never show him that you have feelings for him.

INDIFFERENCE MAKES A DIFFERENCE, KATHLEEN.

At least I Tried..

2010-12-14T11:39:00.003+08:00

If you do not know how to separate between personal and work issues,

If you cant see through their fake smiles and sweet talks,

If you cant read between the lines,

then..

shame on you.

Dreams Collide

2010-11-25T22:55:00.001+08:00

I am stuck here in a moment
And I'm trying to pretend
So I'll play this feeling over and over again.

I know all this memory
Maybe I should awake instead
But I'm on my way to go back inside my head.

I close my eyes
And try to hide
But I wake when these dreams collide.

So I'll put this all on repeat
And I'll make up what comes next.

But it all breaks down if I
Keep on wasting all my time.
All alone, in my head
Wish I'd never thought about it in the end.

DREAMS COLLIDE - Colbie Caillat

I CHOOSE TO LIVE

2010-11-21T17:50:00.006+08:00

Do you ever wish that you could be skinnier? Have you ever had the urge to overexercise or starve just to achieve that waistline that you've always wanted? Have you ever felt frustrated with people who are slow with everything? Are you one of those people who do nothing but jeer at them? If you are any one of them.. YOU should have attended the "I CHOOSE TO LIVE" Psychology Night and if YOU did, YOU would be more appreciative of the life you have now.

Here's some of the pics of that night:

some of the performances

Yee Mun - PsychSoc President

with Yvonne, Anu and Treshi

with Becky and Farrah - the awesome juniors

Part of the Committee

Christine

Feera and Audrey - the awesome deco people.

Thank you for all who helped and supported our first major event. :)

Lots of love,

Kathleen.

Premiere

2010-11-06T22:30:00.006+08:00

Hey y'all!!

Here's my *ahemm* long-awaited update on MONASH BALL 2010!! (:
(at One world hotel)

It was a night filled with performances and not to mention, the great company (people whom i've known for ages yet i havent met them in a long time). Though it was a pretty hectic and busy night for many, I'm glad that I could catch up a little with these people :

Alwin Loo

Jien - THE EMCEE

The models

THE FOOOD (:

Wee Kiat

Alison Chang! (:

SOME of the Monash -ian guys from SMKTS =)

Lindley

Audrey Tho (congrats on the success of the event :))

and in case you're wondering why some of these faces or names looked so familiar, it's cos some of them were from my previous posts during SAM or even high school! and they are the reason as to why i attended the Ball! (:

so there you go, a really rushed update from me to you!!

and before i forget,

to all who are having exams now, ALL THE BEST & GOD BLESS! Remember to SMILE always or even LAUGH OUT LOUD! (amidst the stress) (:

Take care!!

Why do we have to fall for it now?

2010-10-29T23:39:00.002+08:00

okay,

since Esther said that i've not been updating much, i've prepared a list of things to update my blog with BUT... i'm not sure which i'll start with.

Anyhow, here's a preview of what's to come! :)

-Monash Ball 2010
-Nott's Psychology Night 2010

so, stay tuned (:

So I tell it to myself again..

2010-10-28T23:03:00.003+08:00

you're looking for something you cant find
if you give it up, you'll lose your mind
there's always something in your way
what can you say?

dedicated to you.

2010-10-10T15:56:00.002+08:00

"i dont care if you're not there when i need you the most. But, i WANT to be there for you when you need someone" - K.

'cos you're hot then you're cold.

2010-09-21T10:48:00.015+08:00

yes, malaysia. there are times when you're hot and there are times when you're cold. it's just a matter of where we go. (hey that rhymes! :D)

So, first on the list:

PENANG

yummy ice kacang with ice cream!!

the morning started off a little bit gloomy

does all this look familiar?

that's cause.....

its the filming site of 'The Little Nyonya' and a few other local series

at the botanical gardens

my half - finished asam laksa. - the best i've ever tasted

Next up,

CAMERON HIGHLANDS

last but not least,

daddy's supermodel!! :-)

haha. that's all for now, folks! :-)

Everytime i look at you, it's like the first time.

2010-09-08T23:46:00.001+08:00

Do you remember we were sittin' there by the water?

You put your arm around for the first time,

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter,

You are the best thing that's ever been mine!

Blue skies, sunshine and butterflies.. were the conditions i left behind.

2010-09-06T10:47:00.011+08:00

Hello world!!

I'm assuming most of you would have known by now that I did my internship with IBM right? In case you didnt, I was an intern in the Recruitment team. So, i practically screened resumes, schedule tests/interviews, check offer packages and do the orientation for new interns. Sounds pretty fun, huh? :)

Well, i have to say that it was an experience of a lifetime! The people were really friendly and the workload's alright:) Thank God for providing me this opportunity to work with such an awesome team and thank you to the team for being so helpful!

Bryan - the manager!

Shirley, Kath

Celest, Shirley, Kath

Satveer explaining about APAC during a visit from Taylor's

Satveer!! :)

Dorothy

Li Lin

Chin Sheah

Veronica, Chin Sheah, Li Wen, Kath, Celest, Li Lin

Samantha - the one who passed me my offer package from IBM

VJ & CJ - the lunch partners

Veronica

Celest

Shireen

Kenneth Ho

IBM HR Recruitment Team & IST team

I'm so gonna miss these people! :)

Next on the list, Penang and Camerons!

Till then,

Take care.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

2010-07-17T23:44:00.006+08:00

Hey there!
I'm back (with more pictures, as usual!).
Here's just a glimpse of what we did before the crazy Year 1 finals started.

Genting Highlands with Anu, Treshi and Christine.

phew. luckily we did not sit that ride

okay. this is one of the shots i took when we were on this really slow gondola.

The posers. :D

this reminds me of Cameron Highlands, somehow :S

till today, i still cant believe i actually went on this ride.

one word: awesome! (but scary)

Fast forward: Met up with Ash during the Summer Break!:)

Us at BBQ Plaza

p/s: the best friend's back from Aussieland, finally!!!:) and oh, I'm gonna get a new camera!! :P

Alright, that's all from me now.

Take care.

The ball is round; it can go either sides

2010-07-09T10:07:00.002+08:00

Hello world!

Spain won! yay! :) anyway, what's with the videos of people eating octopus and throwing death threats at this innocent octopus? FYI, it's the players who determine the game, NOT the octopus. Are you so blinded by the players that you cant see the fact that Germany lost cos one of their best players wasn't there? I'm truly baffled by the stupidity and obsession of some..

Don't refocus your eyes in the darkness..

2010-07-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

I like my new blog layout. It's no longer EMO. do you?

Because life is worth living..

2010-06-08T19:46:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Another chapter of my life has begun even when the other is not over. I hope I would not have any regrets accepting this offer. Life's okay so far and I hope that it will continue to be okay. That's all I ask for. I'm not asking for life to get better because "the faster you rise, the harder you fall". Yet, I do not want life to get worst. I just wish it could stay at this moment. If only we had the opportunity to freeze any moment in our lives, I would freeze this.

-K-

Till then, take care.

As long as there are clouds, WE'LL get by! :)

2010-05-02T16:40:00.003+08:00

Just another month, just another week and soon, it will be just another day when it will all be over, so just keep hanging in there.

That's what i tell myself and everyone around me these days. No matter how much I keep saying this, I get tired of it too. It gets tougher day by day. Well, you may say, "it's just exams, so why stress and push yourself to the limits?". Well, to you, it may just be another exam (which doesnt count towards the degree). But, to me, it means alot. It's the time when I have to start proving things which are expected of me. And, this is the time when i will normally use the cliche statement "It is not easy being me". I have never gone so far in my life and I have never pushed myself this far. It's as though I'm hanging by a thin thread which can snap any moment. The only thing that keeps me hanging on - Harvard! :)

Anyway, enough of that emo moment which i'm sure you can find anywhere within this period of time.

Here's a little encouragement :

Smile tho' your heart is aching,

Smile eventhough it's breaking,

When there are clouds in the sky,

you'll get by.

If you smile through your pain and sorrow,

Smile and maybe tomorrow,

You'll see the sun come shining through

for you.

Light up your face with gladness,

Hide every trace of sadness,

Although a tear may be ever so near,

That's the time you must keep on trying,

Smile what's the use of crying,

You'll find that life is still worthwhile,

If you just.... SMILE! :)

Gleek-y!

2010-04-28T10:49:00.003+08:00

argh! I'm sooo freaking addicted to this song and Glee when my final's just a few more days to go! 12 more days to go!! :(

okay, back to studying, back to being a geek from a gleek!!!

'Cos these starlight tears wont fall anymore...

2010-04-05T13:45:00.006+08:00

It's been a crazy 2nd sem so far! And this is what's been happening :

Music Talent Quest - 16th March 2010

LOL @ Michele
(excited much, eh? I wonder why.. :P)

Some of the contestants.

Mr. & Ms. Nottingham Semi-Finals -17th March 2010

semi-finalists

some of the contestants...

Colours of Paradies (srilankan cultural night) - 18th March 2010

Mich and Treshi

some fo the performances..

kath, treshi, anu, thari

mich with her ukelele (i think that's how u spell it?)

till more updates from me,

take care

p/s: miss k is gonna go on a strict diet!!! so, please, please wish her luck.:(

Is there joy to be claimed in this world?

2010-03-11T14:50:00.003+08:00

it hurts me that i've to hurt you in this way.

but sometimes, things cant go the way we want it to.

if only.....

We are the World

2010-03-07T22:46:00.006+08:00

There comes a time
when we need a certain call.
When the world must come together as one.
There are people dying.
Oh it's time to lend a hand to life.
The greatest gift of all.

We can't go on,
pretending day by day,
that someone somwhere will soon make a change.

We are all part of,
God's great big family,
and the truth your love is all we need.

We are the World
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
so let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true, we'll make a better day
Just you and me

Well send them your heart,
so they know that someone cares.
And lives will be stronger and free.
As God has shown us, by turning stone to bread
and so we all must lend a helping hand

-We are the world-

Life would be meaningless if we dont give back, dont you think so?

hence, yours truly have decided to devote some of her time in future to help those in need :)

and p/s: I AM NOT JOKING! Grr.

On this cloudless day...

2010-03-04T16:01:00.002+08:00

yours truly just survived 5 hours of class in one stretch!
well, i should be sleeping ...
but i cant..
i'll probably go find some new dramas to watch...
or maybe start working on something productive?
but..
before that,
it's reflection time.. (and no, i'm not gonna be in an emo mood, yet.)

Please, What Else Is On?

2010-02-12T22:33:00.004+08:00

But you put on quite a show, really had me going,
Now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing,
That was quite a show, very entertaining,
and the award for best liar goes to YOU!

cos she's miss sunshine and i'm miss drama queen.

Life's Candy and The Sun's A Ball of Butter

2010-02-12T22:17:00.004+08:00

On the 6th of February 2010, WE conquered Broga Hill :)
So, here are the pictures for you to decide whether it is worth hiking in a pitch black environment at 540 in the morning. :)

Us, at the top! :)

Am proud of you, Esther! :)

that's it from me for now.

take care and happy holidays!

Wont You Take Me Away

2010-01-26T12:43:00.002+08:00

As you all know I've just started Sem 2 right after my exams! And... Day 1 of Sem 2 started with... a PRACTICAL REPORT!!! OH MY GOODNESS!! and here i am, in the computer lab, blogging and facebook-ing instead of doing some research for my report. *sigh* okay, now i'm off to badminton (yes, at 1 in the afternoon)

lots of love! <3.

Turn Back The Clocks.

2010-01-04T12:39:00.010+08:00

It's 2010! Wait! I'm not even done updating on my 2009 posts yet! My goodness. How time flies! Since time is being unkind to me, i shall just post up pictures which may date back to about three to four months ago. So, here you go:

September / October 2009

with Audrey Low.

November 2009

Notts CF

19.11.09- the day i got flour-ed and egg-ed.

21.11.09- a small gathering with the girls

28.11.09- malacca trip

joseph, wen shan, drey, kath, anna

anna, drey, jo, kath, david

and... more. :)

December 2009

14.12.2009-PsychSoc Xmas

15.12.09- CF Xmas

20.12.09- Mark's wedding

al, kath, ju

22.12.09- New Moon with Chea Ying! :)

2009 had been a great year. What will become of 2010? How i wish I knew. Well, all i want is to treasure every single moment of this year and of years to come, be it good or bad.

Until my next update,

Take Care& God Bless :)

Here's to another year.

2010-01-01T22:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!

p/s: sorry for not replying the wishes cos I was really tired and i sort of forgot to :)

The Hundredth: So long, my luckless romance; my back is turned on you.

2009-12-26T10:22:00.007+08:00

Have you ever experienced joy and sorrow at the same time? Yet, you do not really know what these emotions sum up to? Some people say it's love. I say, love's just expressed in one word, that is, pain. Or so i thought. That was me, five months ago, giving up hope that there's something called love. Everything was superficial to me. Until he came along and through his actions, rekindled the hope that love does exist. Everything went well. However, i knew that a day will come when it will fall apart but I didnt care. I took the risk. I took a deep plunge into something that was strange and unknown to me. And, in the glimpse of an eye, everything fell apart. I have never felt so weak in my entire life. What happened to the strong person i used to be? Those nightmares I've had often ended up in tears in the morning. Being away from the people i love didn't help in relieving the pain. I was too ashamed to tell this to anyone because I didnt want to be a weakling who drown herself in self-pity. I stumbled and fell and no one was there to catch me except for Him. The day arrived when I finally regained the confidence to stand up again. That was when I surrender it all to God, believing that one day, He'll send the right one for me. :)

No matter how much pain it has caused me, I will never forget these memories because everything that happened and will happen, is and will be a part of me.

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do.

There you go, a glimpse of my love life for this blog's hundredth post, as voted by you guys! :)

take care :)

To my motion fatigue: farewell.

2009-12-12T19:08:00.002+08:00

wow. i can't believe it! This is my 99th blog post! I never knew this blog would last this long, to be honest. Anyway, my 100th blog post next!!! SOOOO.... look to the poll to your right and practice your rights to vote on what you want me to blog about or... if I should get a guest blogger. :)

anyway,
just a random update on what i'm busy with recently :

Economy & Society Essay due - Monday (14th/12)
Business Econs A Essay due - Thursday (17th/12)
Cognitive Psych Essay due - Thursday (17th/12)
PsychSoc Xmas - Monday (14/12)
CF& SA Xmas - Tuesday (15/12)

most importantly, i actually kinda like uni life. It's like almost everything I thought it would be like. Eventhough I'm faced with so much things to do, I dont feel as stressed as before, which is good.. or BAD.

anyway, i'm off to do my essay!!! See you guys soooon!!! :)

take care :)

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

Blame It On Me.

2009-12-03T13:05:00.002+08:00

I know it's partly my fault. But, didn't i tell you beforehand that THIS would happen? And yet, you're not being understanding at all! Why?

on a more random note,
shoot.i think i lost the soft copy of my practical report.

Forever and Always

2009-11-29T16:53:00.004+08:00

It's that time of the year again!! The joyful period of the year. The time when everyone is back from their study obligations in Aussie. That time of the year where you can spend hours catching up, only to realise how much you missed out. The time when this blog will be filled with posts of pictures. :)

And, after approximately 9 months, SKYYE Reunion marks the beginning of all others.

@NZX

The birthday girls
(Kath & Yiing)

Us with Esther

Esther and Faye

Yie-Ern and Esther

Kath , Yie-Ern

Kath, Esther

Kath, Faye, Yie-Ern and Yiing

SKYE

SKYYE!! :)

p/s: thank you all for the cake and the bday present ! :)

Just in case some of you are wondering what on earth is SKYYE, here's what it is:

SKYYE is a combination of our initials : Su Faye, Kathleen, Yie-Ern, Yin Yiing, Esther.

It started off as an idea for a combined blog. Soon, instead of referring to us by our individual names, we were being referred to as SKYYE as a group :) I'm proud to say that SKYYE has survived 3 years of friendship but I have to say, it definitely wasn't easy. However, we managed to pull through the difficult times. These are the people who truly understand me and the people I can depend upon in troubled times. :)

Till my next update,

Take Care.

This is Me, This is You.

2009-11-29T16:18:00.005+08:00

Yes, I will let go,

not knowing what we can be,
I wont watch my life crashing down on me,
Guess I had it all right before my eyes,
I'm sorry now,
(You and Me),
We're the last thing on my mind.

Set Apart from All the Rest

2009-11-15T23:26:00.003+08:00

Yours truly will be turning 18 in 3 days time. :)

What do I want for my birthday?
a celebration with SKYE on the 18th!

[ sadly, that wont happen :( ]

It ended with a bang!

2009-11-02T18:56:00.000+08:00

STRESS. That's the one word to describe how i've been feeling since i last updated. Luckily, i have these people to help me de-stress over the weekends:)

On one random Saturday night, we (me, Faye, Shaun Lim and Sin Mun) decided to take a drive down to KL, where the KL Family/Gang (whichever you prefer to call) was first "formed" last December. After that, we headed down to Kayu for mamak. :)

Us!

with the guys

and my dearest Faye!!!

with Shaun and Faye.

These people never fail to cheer me up and listen to my stories. <3 them to bits.

On a more recent note, I went for AAR!! :) Thanks to Yin Sze for the ticket :)

Well, i wouldn't say it was a really awesome concert. It was just okay. We were among the front rows of the middle, quite close to the stage, so we were really excited at first, albeit the fact that so many people were pushing their way through. So, we waited from 6 to 730 and no-show. Finally, there were the opening acts by local bands which took up like.. 2 hours? I got really pissed. Its not to say i dont support local bands but most of the audience there are to watch AAR, not local bands! The worst thing of all, AAR only appeared at like around 10 and they only performed for about an hour and a half.

But AAR ALONE was great :)

Yin Sze!

Oh, and one more thing i learnt, it's not about how early you go there to get a good spot in the audiece but how well you can push through the crowd. Barbaric, yes i know. But, that's life, so deal with it! :P

Okay, I'm off again!

I float on the streets that are empty

Take the path that the wind only knows

Tonight is the last time I'll ever be here

There's an answer in the sound of a train

There is wisdom past the bridge on the bay

There's a lifetime through the fog, in the rain,

There's a beauty in walking away.

Take care.

Just one Spark Starts a Fire

2009-10-21T23:01:00.001+08:00

Love isn't love till you give it away.

Reality Strikes.

2009-10-16T09:47:00.001+08:00

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

Time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.

I Forgot To Remember

2009-10-10T20:25:00.002+08:00

Oh my, I can't believe i forgot to add this important part to my previous post.

I've finally started using SKYPE and the first person I SKYPE-D was none other than

ESTHER WONG SZE HUEY!!

We had so much to catch up on and our conversations are always filled with laughter while reminiscing the good old days :)

It's really good to be able to talk to you, Esther!

44 MORE DAYS TILL YOU'RE BACK!! :D

Can't wait :)

p/s: let's skype every thursday okay?:)

Here Me Say, Don't Throw it Away

2009-10-09T11:36:00.008+08:00

This week has been, by far, the most exciting and adventurous week ever since I've started in Nottingham. Despite that, I haven't taken any pics though :(

But first, here's WEEK ONE (including registration and induction):

Week One was spent with Cassandra (roommate) and her Sabahan friends. Billy drove us down to Mid Valley and me, trying to lead the way, ended us up in Low Yat instead of Mid Valley. We had trouble finding it for about more than an hour. Then, after Mid Valley, we had trouble finding where IMU is cos one of her friends studies in IMU. That was the longest journey ever. It took us about roughly an hour and half or two just finding where the place is. And then, another half an hour back to Nottingham. And that was the latest i've slept : 3 am.

okay : Here comes the EXCITING ONE !! :)

Monday - Class as usual. Had my first Practical Class. And, in case you're wondering what do we do in our practical class, don't worry, we don't hypnotise people. What we do is we learn how to conduct experiments and collect data using the computer. Then, since we had about a few hours of break before our 3 pm class, me and Audrey Low decided to book the badminton courts. We went through the booking procedures and then went back to TTS4 to get my racquets. Since the next bus was scheduled at 240 pm, we decided to walk back to the campus from my place (which is ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE). I was practically following my intuition. But, thanks to my good sense of direction *ahem* we finally reached the bridge linking to the campus! Oh, what joy! :D That took us about 20-25 minutes. Well, class went pretty fast and it was time for badminton! The courts were full and the players were really good. So, we decided not to tell them off that we actually booked the court and in the end, we had to play in the football field. LOL.

Tuesday - NO class ! So, me and Audrey took a train down to Mid Valley for shopping! But first, we went to her bus stop in KL to have a look at her bus fairs back to Penang. Then, we had Pizza for lunch. At 5, we waited for the KTM until 540 and by then, we almost missed the bus back to campus but thanks to the jam, the bus only arrived at like 625. *phew* (or else we'd have to wait until 815)

Wednesday - First class of Cultural Studies. BORING. Seriously, it's like Malaysian Studies 2 and moreover, it's a bloody 3 hours lecture. So, I'm dropping that subsidiary module and will be doing Business Econs instead :)

Thursday - Audrey left for Penang. So, I joined Cassandra and her friends to Mid Valley for a night movie, Surrogates, which was boring, really. I almost fell asleep. Totally not worth the money. Reached home at 1 am

Friday - Woke up at 430 for sunrise hiking with Alvin. We took about 40 minutes to reach the peak of Broga Hill. I'm so proud of myself that I actually completed the hike! :) Sadly, it was too cloudy to have a good view of the sunrise. But, the view from the peak was just breathtaking although Nottingham looked kinda pathetic from up there. Hahaha. Then, we went up to Sg. Gabai where there was a waterfall and I saw a baby snake :/ The water was so cooling and refreshing after the hike.

Then, it was time to leave for my home in PJ! The 1240 bus to the KTM station was full, so, I had to wait for the 140 bus. And now, I, blogging from my home in PJ would like to take a rest. :)

Take care people =)

Out of the Darkness and Into the Sun

2009-09-28T21:33:00.004+08:00

I've been posting too many emo stuffs until I forgot to upload these pics. Well, this is only the first week of Uni, so I'll post up what I've taken first.

Here it comes:

luggages and all necessary things

my part of the room (bed, study desk)

well, i was bored :)

the view from my room.

And now, presenting to you.....

University of Nottingham (MC)
(front view)

Directory. And yes, I've to admit, I still get lost at times although the uni's not that huge.

Palm trees and palm oil trees.

That's what's around nottingham :/

Timetable (so hectic compared to the UK's)

'Till I Touch the Sky

2009-09-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

Finally my effort and hard work paid off ;)

Echoes.Silence.Patience and Grace.

2009-09-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

Greetings from Nottingham! I've looked forward to this moment since ten months ago. Yet, as i was on my way to Nottingham yesterday, as I watched all of the memories of high school and college days pass by in the rearview mirror, tears unwillingly swell up in my eyes. Mainly not because I'll be away from home but mainly because this marks the end of my high school and college days. There will be new friendships made but I'm afraid that some friendships might fade away. Then again, the end of something marks the beginning of another.

and before i forget,

a farewell shout out to SHAUN KANG who will be leaving to UK tomorrow :(

till then, take care, all <3.

There's no guarantee Life is Easy.

2009-09-16T10:17:00.003+08:00

If you haven't already noticed, I've been MIA for quite sometime. If you haven't noticed, my last post was dated "August 27th". I have so many things to blog about and yet, I feel as though I don't have anything worth posting. Ironic, isn't it? My life's been a roller coaster in the middle of nowhere, instead of an amusement park. I've faced so many ups and downs and I just feel so lifeless and out of touch with everyone. Giving up is almost a friend of mine now. Yet, a still small voice inside of me tells me to keep holding on. But, how long will this voice last until it slowly fades away?

p.s: a more decent post next time, i promise.

take care.

Throw it all together, that's how we roll.

2009-08-27T09:49:00.006+08:00

After ditching these girls for many times , after being crowned "FFK Queen" by Alison, I finally decided to attend this year's TJC Choir Gathering at Jasmine Towers. It was a night filled with pictures until Al's camera battery went dead which she claimed is because of me and Juls pictures but i think she's in self-denial. It's cos of HER PICTURES :), laughters from funny conversations (which still remain fresh in my memory till today), and not forgetting, FOOD! :)

so, here are some of the pictures (the rest are in facebook) :

with Juls

Four of us

(al, kath, juls, phoebe)

Alison

On a random note:

Out of boredom, I've decided to watch Hannah Montana The Movie. As you all know, I've always declared my dislike for Miley Cyrus everytime I hear her voice or her name but despite that, I've to admit the movie's pretty good. But, that doesnt change my opinion of her :)

Catterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be
Cant go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight,
Promise you there'll come a day,
Butterfly, Fly away.

Boom Clap Boom De Clap De Clap! :D

2009-08-24T21:16:00.003+08:00

tagged by Alison!! >:(

Can you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people. No cheating!

1. Leong Yie-ern
2. Alison Chang
3. Phoebe Loke
4. Julia Ang
5. Esther Wong
6. Liaw Su Faye
7. Sin Mun
8. Shaun Lim
9. Shaun Kang
10. Yeoh Yin Yiing
11. Chea Ying
12. Audrey Tho
13. Sherene Ng
14. Kimberley Oh
15. Kimberly Neo
16. Ming Han
17. Ashley Chin
18. Heng Leong
19. Victoria Ong
20. Wen Yi
21. Shu Xian
22. Loo Yin Sze
23. Wuay Ching
24. Roshan
25. Karin
26. Darrell Ming
27. Amelia Chen
28. Wei Zhen
29. Jeremy Lim
30. Clarine Chan

THE QUESTIONS:
• How did you meet 10?(YYY)
Taman SEA! :)

• What would you do if you had never met 6?(Su Faye)
I'll never get to know that such a kind and selfless person exist :D

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated? (Wen Yi & Kimberly Neo)
ummm.. nothing? i know they wont ... :D

• If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be? (Liaw Su Faye & Kimberley Oh)
umm.. neither? both are my GIRLFRIENDS :)

• Did you ever like 9? (Shaun Kang)
EEWWWW!! he's my COUSIN! = =

• Have you ever seen 4 cry? (Julia)
No.

• Would 4 and 12 make a good couple? (Audrey & Julia)
hahahahhahaha. that would never happen. lol.

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple? (Yie-Ern & Alison)
No cause both of them are also MINE :)

• Describe 8.(Shaun Lim)
(almost) every girl's guy. :P

• Do you like 12? (Audrey)
hahahah YESSS! :D (as a friend la, duhh)

• Tell me something about 17.(Ashley Chin)
umm.. she may not portray an ideal first impression but deep down inside, she's one heck of a good friend :)

• What's 7 's favorite color? (Sin Mun)
No idea . :P

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you? (Yie-Ern)
awww.. i like you toooo.. *coughs*

• When was the last time you talked to number 15? (Kimberly Neo)
gosh.. my last trip to Monash ?

• How do you think 19 feels about you? (Victoria Ong)
Hmm.. i've no idea really :)

• What languages does 13 speak? (Sherene)
English!!

• Who is 2 going out with? (Alison)
Me!!! but of course, there's always the other someone special *sigh*

• What grade is 16 in? (Ming Han)
University.

• What is 5 's favorite music? (Esther)
I've no idea .. but something inspirational and worship songs, yes, Esther?

• Would you ever date 3? (Phoebe)
YESSS :D

• Is 1 single? (Yie-Ern)
Umm.. yes?

• What is 10's last name? (YYY)
Yeoh

Did you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 7? (Sin Mun)
NOOO!!!

• Where does 18 live? (Heng Leong)
As of now, Melbourne :(

.• What do you think about 20? (Wen Yi)
Sweeet as sugar!! :)

• What is the best thing about 4? (Julia)
bloop bloop BLOOP orchestra (inside joke). hahahah. nah, she's a great friend :)

• Is 21 hard-working? (Shu Xian)
Yes, definitely :)

• What would you like to tell 14 right now? (Kimberley Oh)
I misss youu!!!

• How did you meet 9? (Shaun Kang)
He's part of my family?

• What is the best and worst thing about 2? (Alison)
Hmm, yeah, what's so good about you, Al? hahahha just JOKING. she's one of my besties so obviously i love her for loads of reasons. Worst thing? Nothing? :)

• Are you going to know 3 forever? (Phoebe)
Yeah. Don't know what i'll do without her man.

• How long have you known 26? (Darrell Ming)
Umm.. a few months?

.• Who is 24? (Roshan)
TAYMUN EXCO =)

• Are you or did you ever date 28? (Wei Zhen)
No.

• Do you have a crush on 27? (Amelia Chen)
hahahaha. noooooo!! if i did, her bf would have probably killed me by now :)

• Would you kiss 25? (Karin)
No.

• Have you hugged/kissed 22? (Yin Sze)
Hugged, Yes. haha.

• Is 29 ur bff? (Jeremy Lim)
No.

• What do you hate about 23? (Wuay Ching)
Nothing.

• What's your relationship with 30? (Clarine)
Friends.

• Anything you wanna tell 6? (Su Faye)
Nurse ah faye!!! :D

• What if 11 comes and tell you he loves you? (Chea Ying)
I love you toooo!!! :D:D

• If you are stuck in an island with 5, what would you do? (Esther)
We'll tour the island, duhh! :P

p.s.: this is random but i soooo love my friends :)

We claimed the brightest star and we came so far

2009-08-17T10:41:00.007+08:00

Just an ordinary yet meaningful 2 hours outing,

it always amaze me how easily i open up to her.

Well, i guess that's the beauty of best friends :)

When you look back on times we had

I hope you smile

And know that through the good and through the bad

I was on your side

When nobody could hold us down

We claimed the brightest star

And we, we came so far

And no they won't forget

Whenever you remember times gone by

Remember how we held our heads so high

When all this world was there for us

And we believed that we could touch the sky

Whenever you remember, I'll be there

Remember how we reached that dream together

Whenever you remember.

Okay, now i'm off to the dentist to fix the rest of my braces! Ergh! :(

Walk around with my hands up in the air like I don't give a damn.

2009-08-08T21:55:00.002+08:00

Try to tell me what I shouldn't do
You should know by now,
I wont listen to you
Walk around with my hands up in the air
Cause I don't care
Cause I'm alright I'm fine

Just freak out let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I cant ever run and hide I wont compromise
cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I cant watch the time go by
I wont keep it inside

Freak out let it go
Just freak out let it go
You dont always have to do everything right
Stand up for yourself
and put up a fight
walk around with your hands up in the air like you don't care

Freak Out by Avril Lavigne

This is exactly how I'm feeling right now. I really cant bear to hang on any longer. I know that this IS LIFE but come on, I'm only freaking 17 turning 18 this year. I'm supposed to be enjoying every moment of life as i see it, not breaking down every single day!!! But then again, if I just LEAVE, I cant bear the thought of leaving you ALONE, helpless. I'm just hoping another 6 weeks will pass by quickly, like a breeze.

Starts With Goodbye

2009-07-27T21:00:00.004+08:00

As I'm typing this, Ash is on her flight way back to Melbourne. Oh, how time flies! It feels like yesterday that she came back from Melbourne. Here are the updates on our outing while she was still here.

okay, i'm not sure when is this but this should be early July where we did lots of catching up and shopped till we nearly dropped! :)

And the second outing was to watch Harry Potter on the day it was released! Thanks to Ash and her sis for getting the tickets in advance plus we got really goood seats!

The movie was alright, i think. The visual effects were great, but that's about it. And oh, my fave character is Luna and I find Ginny kinda annoying. Lol.

And then, it's time for our last outing (21/7/2009)

Beef Lasagna at Delicious

and we got sooo bored of One U that we decided to ditch the place and we went over to her house to watch "Wild Child" and an episode of "Gossip Girl" :)

And to this girl:

Enjoy your second semester and I'll see you in December. Remember to bring me to Phuket and our movie marathon + sleepover! :)

That's all for now. More updates on more outings next. :D

All Tomorrow's Parties

2009-07-12T21:46:00.008+08:00

After 5 months or so, finally, i've met up with most of them from Aussie. Ashley, Esther, Chea Ying! And for the rest who are still in Aus and not back this July (ahemm.. Kimberley..), you better get your butts back here in December. But, i've yet to meet up with the others who are on hols now, like... Yie-Ern, Faye, etc. :(

Having said that, here are some pictures from our shopping session with CY and CY's birthday :)

Yin Sze :)

CY, Audrey

In the photo sticker booth :

Audrey

Audrey, Yin Sze, Chea Ying

And below are the pics from CY's 19th Birthday at her oh-so-genormous house :)

Getting ready for Wii Boxing! :)

BBQ-ing

Oh! Sushi mania!

Twister and who won? ;P

The usual group photo at the back of CY's house

CY, Yin Sze, Garry

ken with the three of us

LOL AUDREYYY!!

Last but not least,

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY,

MISS CHEA YING! (:

p.s.: pics courtesy to garry and audrey. more pics up next :)

Take A Bow

2009-07-06T00:04:00.005+08:00

Just a real short update:

MPO was... AWESOME! The timing and dynamics were so precise and accurate. The soprano singer for Handel's Alcina (Alcina was a sorceress who uses her magic powers to attract heroic warriors to her magic island and turn them into wild beasts and other animal forms. She meets her match with a young man called Ruggiero who overcomes her sorcery by remaining faithful to his true love. ) and Mozart's Marriage of Figaro (The Marriage of Figaro tells the going-ons in the court of a certain Count Almaviva, whose penchant was for taking young girls to bed. But his constant chasing after younger women deeply upsets his wife, the Countess, who sings that, despite her husband's many faults, she still yearns for his love.) kept me in awe throughout the whole concert. It was truly a priceless experience. That's all I can say. You've gotta go there to know what I mean. :)

A Hand To Take Hold of The Scene

2009-06-30T16:27:00.008+08:00

Sunway University College

Model United Nations (SUNMUN) Conference

26th-28th June 2009

Okay, confession time. A month ago, I was finding a million excuses to not attend this conference but I finally gave in and attended it. And I am glad I did. It proved to be so much fun although the quality of the debate and resolutions aren't as good as the ones in KLMUN.

I'm lazy to type and elaborate further. I'll just let the pictures do the talking :

yeap, I went as a Chair this time :)

After our last committee session was dismissed, we went over to ECOSOC to disturb wernie and the delegates there.

"delegate of russia" : "Clause 7 is good because it consists of two lines and a two-line clause is always good. Better than a one-line clause." = =

This is what Wernie does as Director of ECOSOC. Poser!

Annarina!

Promoting the TAYMUN Conference during the closing ceremony.
Can't see the details?

Well, no more excuses cos here are the details :
Venue : TUCMC
Date: 24th -26th July 2009

Presenting.. the Chairs. :)

(Roshan, Wern Sheng, Nellie , Kath, Annarina)

okay, it was supposed to look like me hitting wernie but it doesnt seem like it. = =

Jun Hsien.

Taylor's participants :)

Crazy yet fun people of General Assembly! :)

and this.. I present to you..
SUNMUN participants :)

This is my second and probably the last conference I'll be attending. I'm still contemplating on whether I should go for the TAYMUN Conference. Oh well, i still have about a week to think about it.

"I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change"

Anyway, updates on me and the people who came back from Aussie next. :)

Till then, (as usual)

Take care.

Here Comes Goodbye

2009-06-18T10:59:00.003+08:00

All i heard in the silence were deafening cries.
All I felt was drops of water on my cheeks.
But I didn't realize that those were my own cries and tears.
I was awakened by my brother.
For a moment, I thought it was a nightmare.
As i wiped my tears away, I realize that I've just woken up to a real-life nightmare.

I just need an answer to all these questions : Why do my parents lie to me? Why are they always giving me false hopes? Is it wrong for me to dream big? Is it wrong for me to want the best for myself?

I don't know what I'm gonna do next. Dear God, please grant me the strength to hang in there.

The whisper conscience in your ear.

2009-06-13T19:30:00.006+08:00

It's June 13th. I just realized that I haven't been blogging for almost a month now.

So what have I been up to?

Outings. Definitely. From the embarassing incident in Sushi King with Alison and our "jakun-ness" in One U to watching the 3D version of Monsters and Aliens with Shaun (the cousin) and Julia in Mid Valley.

best childhood buddies :)
Julia (JuJu) and Phoebe

And..

Ive been really busy with work. Yeah, I finally found a job and its as an assistant teacher in MonteMusic, a montessori cum music school. Although the pay may seem little, I guess it's okay since I only work thrice a week, three hours a day. Unlike my previous job, I actually learn something and my, it's fun! Well, at least I have something to do while waiting for my university to start and in case you're wondering what is in store for me next, it's BSc (Hons) Psychology in Nottingham.

gosh. I cant wait for the people in Aussie land to be back !!!I'm anticipating all the fun we'll be having. The outings with Esther where it can be both serious and funny, the embarassing shopping trip with CY, and not forgetting, the long awaited Singapore trip with Ashley Chin!!Gosh, it'll all start in two weeks time. Goodness knows how much I miss you guys :)

Till my next update,

take care :)

Sweet Silver Lining

2009-05-28T23:25:00.004+08:00

So much have happened lately. I dont even know where to start. I've received more good news than bad news but why does the bad news have to overshadow the good ones? I have stopped believing that miracles do happen. You say, dreams do come true. Well, let me tell you this : They DONT. Instead, I believe in my own effort and what I'm capable of doing. Above all, I believe in clouds with that sweet silver lining. (sorta contradicting, eh?) (:

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I'm just surviving
And I may be weak
but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing
In clouds with that sweet silver lining

-Sweet Silver Lining by Kate Voegele-

B'day Wish 2009- May 23rd

2009-05-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

2007

2008

2009

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY,

LEONG YIE-ERN

aka

the Best Friend :)

From the year 2003 till 2009,

the scouting years till the university year,

our friendship remained strong.

You never fail to listen to me everytime i needed a shoulder to cry on.

You never fail to remind me that God is always there for me.

Thank you, Miss Leong for all that you've done.

Have a great 18th birthday and may God bless you (=

Lost with No Direction

2009-05-15T17:31:00.006+08:00

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

-The Climb by Miley Cyrus-

you wont know how i'm feeling now.

this is the worst i've ever felt.

it's like the many times i've fallen;

the only difference is that

this time, i dont have the courage to pick myself up.

i don't know what to do anymore.

dont even try saying "i know how it feels"

cos no one does.

cos no one understands how much this means to me.

so please just dont ask.

i need time to get over it.

Once upon an old daydream

2009-05-13T11:18:00.002+08:00

omg. It's already May 13th. There's seriously a limit to my patience. It's so disappointing to wake up every morning just to find no notification emails from NUS, the word "application processing" under my online application status enquiry and NO mails in my mail box. Should I give up on my last hope of studying somewhere out of Malaysia? :( Okay, i'll give them until the end of next week. If there arent any answers, I guess I already know the answer.

Another small piece of me starts to fall into place.

2009-05-11T23:06:00.005+08:00

This journey has been a really long one. It seemed never ending. As generic as this may sound, it's been filled with ups and downs. The down part of it is the stress in practicing when I'm supposed to be enjoying it instead. The up part of this whole journey being the satisfaction of being able to move on to the next grade without any regrets, without wishing I could've done any better.

Three weeks ago, it was my last time entering the cold examination room in PJ Hilton, with sweaty palms and butterflies in my stomach. Whatever will be will be, I told myself. Today, I received a phone call and hearing the ever familiar voice of my teacher over the other line, I answered her with full of nervousness and anxiety in my voice. I was prepared for the worst. But, I FREAKING PASSED MY ABRSM GRADE 8 PRACTICAL EXAMINATION (surprisingly, with my aural and sight reading being my best!! :):))

This acts as a proof that if you really want something badly, you'll get it and also, with great effort comes great rewards. I'm so glad to have actually survived this journey which is filled with mixed feelings. And no, I'm definitely not pursuing a diploma. (:

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you’re made of
You might bend ‘til you break
Cause it’s all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand.
-Stand by Rascal Flatts-

okay, thats it from me now :)

Quiet Things that No One Ever Knows

2009-05-07T21:06:00.004+08:00

Okay, the truth about what's been happening to me. It's a really long story. So, as a summary, I was down with a diarrhoea, vomitting and high fever for five days. On the sixth day, I was admitted to the hospital for a night with 6 packets of drip, one after the other (until today, they still have no idea what is the cause although dengue fever and cholera was suspected). The worst thing of all was that I fell sick a day before my trip to Terengganu with my French cousins. It was supposed to be a 'bonding' session but I was so sick that I was confined to the bed throughout the whole trip while they were out, snorkeling in Pulau Kapas. Pretty sad eh? Well, I'm glad I'm pretty okay now, though I do get random stomach aches at times.

Since there arent any pics from Terengganu, here are some pics of them while they were here:

Annabelle

Marjorlaine

Both of them (:

Despite the language barrier, we still managed to communicate and they're really nice people. :) But right now, while I'm typing this, they're back in France and I miss them :( Oh well, I hope they come back real sooon.

Putting aside last week's highlights, today i visited Monash and I did manage to meet up with a few people (Mia, Yie-Ern, Audrey, Kim Neo, etc.) I should go there more often, don't you think so, Audrey? :D

Well, that's all for now. Take Care (:

Just a quick one.

2009-05-01T10:35:00.003+08:00

To those who knew what happened to me, I'm feeling much much better now. I've been discharged from the hospital yesterday, thus, the late updates. Sorry to keep you all worrying, especially esther and faye. But, thanks so much for your prayers and concern. I'm off to rest for awhile now.

p.s.: i'll update the details next, when I've fully recovered.

B'day Wish 2009- April 22nd

2009-04-24T10:25:00.003+08:00

2007
(sorry for posting the prom picture. you know why. lol)

2008

2009

To the dearest Liaw Su Faye,

first of all, sorry for the really late birthday post.

Secondly, thanks for always being there,

those times in Form 5, especially in purple house,

when we had to do things beyond our responsibility.

If it weren't for you, i doubt I would have the strength to hold on,

those times when I needed someone to talk to

and you were just a phone call away,

those moments where you'll never fail to cheer me up with your "sampat-ness" during our random outings.

Thank you so much , faye.

If I were to name the most forgiving and kind-hearted person I've ever known,

it'll definitely be you.

Again and again those whom you love hurt you

yet you never fail to forgive them.

You are truly God's blessing in my life

and in others' too.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY,

LIAW SU FAYE!!

God Bless!!

p/s.: i hope you really enjoyed the modest celebration/outing and i hope you really like the present. don't fret about the price cos you deserve it :)

You will fly and you will crawl ; God knows even angels fall..

2009-04-21T23:37:00.003+08:00

Why do i feel as though my worst nightmare is coming true?
Is it just me thinking too much?
or will my instincts prove to be correct this time?
Am i just being too stressed?
Am i too tired?
I havent been this worried for my entire life.
Not even when i sit for SPM or my SAM finals.
Sometimes i wonder,
will i ever get through this day?
Will i ever survive till this day?
But it seems to be approaching so near,
and i know there's no escape.
All i can do is try my best
and face it.
After all, maybe in 2 months or 3 months,
the outcome wouldn't matter to me.

Can't let the music stop; can't let this feeling end.

2009-04-13T20:27:00.011+08:00

David Archuleta's Showcase

Sunway Lagoon Amphitheatre

11th April 2009

This post will be all about the showcase and there'll be loads of videos and pics, so if you think you can't bear with it, you are welcomed to leave :)

So, me and Yie-Ern arrived at Sunway Pyramid at 1115 and took a shuttle bus to the Elephant Walk which is near Sunway College, if you didn't know.

in front of Pyramid, waiting for the shuttle bus

this was where we were standing and it was only 1200!!

(well, some people arrived as early as 6)

And guess who i met? AMANDA PHUAH (the girl who loves to step on my shoe during my high school days) and my librarian junior, WEI YUEN(i remember your name now!! :) ) with their other friends.

We waited for about 50 minutes for the line to start moving but when it finally did, I havent received the tickets yet!! Well, I was supposed to collect it from 1230 onwards but those 'people' weren't there yet. Eventually, we had to move out of the line. Gosh, wasted our time in the queue. Okay, let's forget about that.

We finally got our tickets!! :D

and yes, at 1330, the amphitheatre was nearly full!!

(and those empty seats are reserved for the VIPS)

the stage

and as usual, while waiting..

we took loads of pictures!!

this is she, who was sooooo hungry
(i was too tired to care about whether i was hungry. hahaha)

soon,

it was 1400

then..

1430

then..

1500
.
.
.
.

1530

.
.
.
.
1600

but still no-show!

until we got MAD!

Finally...

JJ and Ean from hitz.fm morning crew appeared on stage and tried to hype up the crowd with some games and gifts.

JJ

After that,
performances from some Malaysian artists..

and.. FINALLY!!!!!

David Archuleta!!! :):):) with the first song,
A little Too Not over You

and here goes the videos:

I don't own the videos. So credits to the uploader :)

and the last few performances on the keyboard,
rendition of
A thousand Miles and Angels.

and the showcase only lasted for ... 30 minutes.
Well, it's not called a showcase and not a concert for nothing.

but, heck, it was AWESOME!!!
definitely worth the wait.
the crowd was sooooo CRAZYYYYYY!!!!!
everyone was practically SCREAMING!!!!!!!
(except for me who was down with a sorethroat)

after the showcase..

dinner at Tony Roma's, Sunway Pyramid:)

and we went home after that. I was soooo exhausted and I think I still feel the effect today.

p.s.: more pics on facebook (=

okay, that's all for now. for those of you who have endured through this post, thanks :)

Damn those sweet memories

2009-04-10T12:32:00.003+08:00

yes, i havent been updating about my personal life in a long time. So, here's just a short update; I've been doing nothing much lately. Life's been pretty dull lately with everyone studying and me taking a break. And, my brain feels rusty. I need to prepare it for uni which will start in a few months time. So, I've decided to self-study and as crazy as this may sound, i plan to study A Levels Maths. (i love maths lah, okay. no need to memorize anything) :)

Life's been boring and depressing,yes, but Faye never fails to cheer me up with her random outings like...

Pasar malam at SS2, then a short trip to Curve with Joyce, Faye, her nursing friends, Shaun and Sin Mun (not in the pic)

and....

a recent trip to Sunway Pyramid for dinner

with Shaun, Faye, Sin Mun and Alric (not in the pic)

and more recently, I've been sick with a fever!! :( but thank God i'm feeling much better today!! :)

p/s: to the best friend, remember our "date" tomorrow :)

till my update on the most happening event this weekend, take care :)

The Search for Something More

2009-04-03T17:00:00.003+08:00

It's that time of the year again. Where almost everyone is craving and crazy over American Idol.

No doubt, last year, in American Idol Season 7,

my favourite was and still is..

David Archuleta

(who'll be performing in KL in a weeks' time!!)

This year, my favourite contestant(s) of American idol Season 8 is(are)....

*drums roll*

Kris Allen!!

and...

Adam Lambert!!

but.. the rest of the contestants are really good tooo!! for those who dont watch AI, goodness knows what you're missing out. :)

that's all from me for now. :)

B'day Wish 2009- March 29th

2009-03-28T22:39:00.006+08:00

2007

2008

2009

To..

her who have shared both good and bad times with me,

of without whom, SKYE will never be complete,

Happy 19th Birthday,

Esther Wong!!

Thanks for being such a wonderful friend.

Take care of yourself in Brisbane ya!

May God bless you on this very sepcial day

and in days to come, of course.

Love ya loads.

I'm not a princess; this ain't a fairytale.

2009-03-22T19:07:00.003+08:00

It has been a rough day for me today.
I had to face a cold hard truth about something which I've feared that will happen.
But i know that this is not the end.
Failure once doesnt mean failure forever.
Call me delusional
but I'm never giving up.

B'day Wish 2009- March 16th

2009-03-16T23:02:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY

Audrey Tho

Like i've said earlier, you're now almost TWO years older than me

As a summary of the letter,

Thank you again for everything :)

and I do hope you had a blast on this special day :)

Hanging By A Moment

2009-03-13T10:51:00.004+08:00

Imagine TWO whole days at home without the Internet, which means no Heroes, 90210, etc. and almost 3 hours in front of the piano, practicing my exam pieces. I almost died of boredom. Yet, I survived! :)

So, out of boredom, I decided to do the tag by Alison and Phoebe on Facebook, the only difference is that I'm posting it here instead of Facebook.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

excluding the "The seriousness of your love" section, this whole thing is actually quite accurate! (:

That's all for now. I'm back to practicing piano again. Till my next update, take care :)

Over and Over Again..

2009-03-07T14:54:00.004+08:00

If only I had one wish..

and a wish that would come true..

I wish to be where you guys are right now..

Melbourne, Brisbane, wherever...

I miss all of you !!!

Life's definitely not the same without you guys here! :(

There you go..

2009-03-02T23:16:00.003+08:00

hah! Alison, you are quite screwed x)

(9 days more and i'm waiting...)

but..

THANKS in advance :)

Making A Difference

2009-02-27T14:01:00.004+08:00

Kuala Lumpur Model United Nations (KLMUN) Conference

20th-22nd February 2009

Garden International School

This conference has really been an eye opener to how lousy our Malaysian education really is. It's amazing how these 13-15 year olds from international schools (MKIS, ISKL, GIS) can be so much more outspoken than us, 17 year olds. I can't remember me, or anyone else for that matter, to have such a vast general knowledge on world issues when we were 15.

Nevertheless, we still had loads of fun debating over resolutions. Some presented facts and others just spoke for the fun of speaking up. In the Human Rights Committee, we were presented with two questions, the responsibilities of TNCs with regards to human rights and the rights of detainees and P.O.W.s. We had an emergency topic as well, on Genocide Denial.

Some of you may say, debate sounds boring. In fact, the whole conference thing may sound boring. Well, you won't find it boring as there would be sarcasm and insults thrown at other delegates during their speech, such as the conflict between the delegate of France and South Korea with the delegate of Indonesia, those moments when the delegate of Indonesia would throw a "Can you read?' to the speaker and to prevent any tension from arising, a "Delegates, KLMUN is a happy place :)" from the Chair.

Oh Yea Ji

the other delegate of Ethiopia from GIS.

Kath, Annarina, Wern Sheng

As the last day arrived, we left the school with a heavy heart, carrying with us the experience of participating in a conference and new friendships.

Goodbye Clouds of Gray, Hello Skies of Blue (:

2009-02-23T19:33:00.003+08:00

No, it has nothing to do with the weather.
In fact, I love the rain and the cloudy weather.
But, if you look at it from a different point of view,
you'll find that what i really mean is
life has never been better.
It's as tho' I have been living in a world that is filled with darkness
without any sense of direction as to where everything is going
but now, a ray of light shines through the darkness
and I am back on track,
focusing on what matters most to me.
I'm stronger than i thought.
I feel so relieved now.
Thank You. :)

Smiles of A Summer Night

2009-02-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

In a glimpse of an eye, a year have passed. It's been a great experience making new friends, working with people that you hardly know, college mates who aren't in the same class or course. Yet, some strong bonds have formed among us. =)

Taylor's Model United Nations (TAYMUN)

EXCO Farewell Dinner

11th February 2009

Lemon Garden Cafe, Shangri-La

Zhen, Kimberly, Kath

Kimberly

Roshan

Wuay Ching

Kimberly, Jason, Hui Ning

Jason

Kimberly

the girls :)

(Zhen, Lee Lian, Kath, Kimberly, Wuay Ching, Hui Ning)

the guys :)

(Li Wei, Jason, Ken Vin, Roshan, Chia Yew)

Chia Yew, Roshan, Jason, Kath, Zhen

Us :)

I'm kinda lazy to blog about CY's potluck gathering, so i'll do that later. That's it for now.

As usual, take care <3.

The Leaving Song

2009-02-14T12:06:00.003+08:00

As promised, a post of dedications to those who'll be leaving or already left.

14th February 2009- Ashley Chin, University of Melbourne

15th February 2009- Esther Wong, University of Queensland

Kimberley Oh, University of Melbourne

Ming Han - University of Melbourne

16th February 2009- Heng Leong, University of Melbourne

Sherene Ng - University of Melbourne

Claire Ng - Monash University

17th February - Chea Ying, University of Melbourne

To all who are leaving,

Thank you so much for all you've done while you were here,

I truly appreciate our friendship and every single second that we spent together,

the happy, sad and stressful moments.

Nothing can ever replace our memories.

P.s.: Please pass your contact number in Aus to me and rmb, keep in touch always (:

Every Night is Another Story

2009-02-10T18:26:00.003+08:00

Its funny how time flies isnt it? In a weeks' time, most of you would be in Aussie. There were some that I had a chance to meet up and some I didnt. To Ellen and Josephine who have left for Canberra and Perth respectively, I wish you all the best :)

And so, speaking of farewells, Esther had her farewell party cum gathering on Saturday in Casa Kiara.

Here's a glimpse of the pictures :

Kath, Kar May, Esther, Zhong-Ken, Ser Siang

Kar May, Esther, Kath

Su Faye, Kath, Yie-Ern, Yin Yiing, Esther

(SKYE!) :)

- i miss those SKYE days :( -

with Ee Ling

with Claire

Yie-Ern, Kath, Ee Ling

with Yin Yiing

"Let me tell you,

They will always pull you down

Before you know it,

They will take your smile and push you around

They will fight and struggle

To blur and trouble

Your sense of solid ground"

And with that, I end my post. There will be loads of dedications to come so please bear with me. Lol. =)

Nothing's Changed At All

2009-02-04T11:56:00.000+08:00

After two months of not seeing each other, it was time for a small steamboat gathering for some of us from P1 in Yuen's. We ate and laughed to our heart's content. It reminded me of those short one-hour lunch we used to have, the moments we were late for class and we had to face the stare and lecture of a certain lecturer. Do you remember? :P

Yummy.. :)

Chea Ying and Yin Sze

May and Audrey = =!

Chea Ying

Melissa. Audrey, Yin Sze, CY

Yin Sze

Audrey

The girls :)

This is a rather short update since i've been blogging quite often these days.

Lend me your ears, I would like to confess

2009-02-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

What would you do when life pushes you around? Go out with your best friend! (besides praying, obviously) :) and that's exactly what I did, going out with Yie-Ern. So, it was a really meaningful outing eh? All that happened in the last few months were compressed in one outing. Secrets were revealed and some things were confessed. But that, of course, is only for us to know =)

As usual, here goes the pictures:

Her

Me.

Don't hope for any CNY updates cos there'll be none, unfortunately :P

And..

Loads of people have been asking me what i'm gonna study and where. If you've been reading my blog, you'll probably find the answer by now. Currently, I'm on a 5 months holiday but I'm not doing nothing. I have my Grade 8 to complete and I'm on a scholarship hunt. IF i get one, then it'll be ANU. If i dont, it'll be NUS (if i am offered a place). Or else it'll be local (i detest the idea of studying locally).

Till my update on P1 Steamboat in Yuen's, take care :)

B'day Wish 2009 - Feb 1st

2009-02-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

To : Claire Ng Lee Jiuan,

My first friend in Taman SEA,

my classmate for two years,

and now, my collegemate.

Six years of friendship and still counting.

Thanks for being such a wonderful friend to me,

listening to my rants all the time.

On this special day, I'd like to wish you

Happy 19th Birthday! :)

(a year till you reach 20! wow!)

P/s.: my umbrella! = =

Lift Me Up

2009-01-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt like giving up?
Well, I'm currently feeling like that.
We speak of many great plans for the future,
but will it really come true?
Is it true that if we want something badly and put our heart into it,
we'll achieve what our heart desire?
Sometimes, life is really unfair
and at these times, I really feel like giving up chasing after what i truly want.
But, there's a small part of me that keeps pressing on,
still believing that one day, the rest of my dreams will come true.

This road is anything but simple
Twisted like a riddle
I've seen high and I've seen low
So loud, the voices of all my doubts
Telling me to give up, to pack up and leave town

Even so, I had to believe
Impossible means nothing to me

So can you lift me up
Turn the ashes into flames
‘Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Somewhere, every body starts there
I'm counting on a small prayer,
Lost in a nightmare
But I'm here, and suddenly it's so clear
The struggle through the long years
It taught me to outrun my fears

Everything worth having
Comes with trials worth withstanding

Down and out is overrated
And I need to be elevated
Looking up is not enough
No, I would rather rise above

So can you lift me up
Turn the ashes into flames
‘Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Just let go, relax, enjoy the ride

2009-01-23T17:26:00.000+08:00

It was a week full of outings and a very busy one. Here's just a brief overview of what I've been doing this week :

19th Jan - Went back to Taylor's to visit Alison. (Today's Friday and I hope you're doing okay over there =) I know that some people there can be really mean. If they are mean to you, just call my dear cousin to bash them up for you xD)

20th Jan- Had breakfast with Alison. Then, it was lunch with Ash and Carmen.

21st Jan- Finally, an outing with Wen Yi, who came back from Adelaide =D

22th Jan- Book shopping with Esther and after that, went back to college again to help out for ECA Day, which was so much more fun than last years =D

ECA Day!

23th Jan- CF at Taman SEA!! It's been a year since the last time I step into Taman SEA. It felt nice yet awkward. There were sooo many strange faces and my, the juniors have actually grown! They're no longer petite or chubby like how they were two years ago.

And, as for this coming week, CNY week, I just want to relax and get enough sleep. Despite the festive mood everyone's in, the blasting CNY music and the colourful decorations in shopping malls, I dont feel like celebrating CNY.

That's it for now. I'm off to watch OTH and Gossip Girl. :)

Take care. <3.

Wake Up to Your Dreams

2009-01-16T18:25:00.000+08:00

14/1/2009 - It was supposed to be Ian's "Farewell" Lunch but he turned up late. :P So, I meet up with Ash and Ming and we ate at Dragon-I before Ian and the rest arrived. Luckily he arrived right before Ash left to Singapore. Shortly after, Kimberley arrived and we met up with Vic's friend, Justin, from Melbourne right before Vic arrived. Confusing eh?

Ash C!

Kimberley Oh!!

and before i forget, Goodbye Ian (you're prob in Perth already = =)!

My my, this reminds me of how much time i have left with you guys :( So many people are leaving from the 13th till 17th February and ALL of you guys are heading over to Melbourne! And by the time you guys are back in June/July, I'll probably be off to ANU unless I'm studying locally or NUS. *Sigh* Which means the next time we'll be able to meet up is in December =(

Well, my schedule is BOOKED specially for you people from NOW till your departure dates. So, give me a ring if you wanna meet up for prob the last time before you leave. =(

Till my next update on more outings and farewells, take care.

P.s.: Someone's starting college on Monday eh! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! But dun wry, hun. I'll be there on your FIRST DAY to help you cope. I'm such a goooooood friend right? Oh well, you've got to admit that I'm AWESOME =D

Follow Your Heart

2009-01-11T14:34:00.000+08:00

A tribute to a good friend.

Life is full of unexpected surprises.
Good or bad, it's up to us to take the risk.
If we dont, we'll never know.
Today, I just found out something really surprising.
Something which i half expected yet a part of me totally unexpected it.
And that part of me was taken aback.
I guess, when we are passionate about something, the only right thing to do is go after it.
No matter how much we'll miss the things and people we know,
Life is all about exploring new things.
And..
Life, as I see it, is not that predictable after all.

More Than A Name or Face In The Crowd

2009-01-10T21:27:00.001+08:00

;)

Almost believing it was not pretend

2009-01-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered how someone who fall out of a relationship can commit themselves to another person so quickly?

Answer, REBOUND.

And sometimes we wonder, if that person is a rebound, how can we fall in love with a rebound?
Truth is, we always do. It is to cover up the pain that we feel at that point in time.

and that got me thinking...
was HE the rebound last year? If yes, for who? I'm confused.

Leave All the Past Behind You

2009-01-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

2008. The Year in Review.

Things happened and changed, both intentionally and unintentionally.

New friendships were made and old friendships might have fade.

Some have found their significant other and some remain hurt.

Some moved on with life whereas others remain stuck in their past.

Some have experienced new things in life but others still stay in their safe, comfort zone.

This is life.

Here are some pictures from 2008. Enjoy =)

As for me, one year have passed by and nothing much has changed besidesthe fact that I've realised that my FRIENDS are practically almost the MOST IMPORTANT thing in my life. If I could turn back time, I wouldn't change a thing except that I wish I haven't blurted out some things as a result of anger. It was a year I've experienced a lot of "first's" (if you get what i mean) =). I'm just hoping that this new year would be a good year. Hopefully, it'll be a year where I'll be able to start afresh in a new place.

Anyway, here's a little update on how i celebrated New Year. At first I didn't wanna go to Curve cos I just came back from Singapore but all of a sudden, I really felt like going. So, while i was messaging Sin Mun to ask him if he was already there, I received a call from Faye and I contemplated for awhile whether to go. In the end, I gave in and went to Curve and celebrated New Year with ....

Sin Mun, Alwin, Mia and BF (Wilson), Derk Wen, Derk Hua, Shaun, Faye, and some of their Form 6 friends. =)

Mia

Faye

Derk Wen, Sin Mun, Faye, Derk Hua

with the Aussie Twins

and, after the countdown, we were stuck in the massive traffic jam for about half an hour and there were FIVE of us in the back seat of Sin Mun's car. OMG. Luckily, the roads were pretty much cleared and the twins drove their car to Kayu.

At Kayu.

So, that's about it for the New Year update.

P.s.: New Year's Resolution:

1) Draw nearer to God

2) Keep in touch with everyone

3) Get a scholarship!!

4) Finish Grade 8

5) As usual, get excellent results

6) Let bygones be bygones (in other words, be more forgiving)

and..

as impossible as it may sound..

NEVER FALL IN LOVE !!

Standing Tall

2009-01-01T14:11:00.000+08:00

Singapore. Shopping Spree. Good education. What more could i ask for? :)

Day 1- Bugis Street

(yea, my hair's really short now =( )

Day 2 - At NUS

(which is so damn big!)

In the University Hall:

At Orchard Road:

the SPECTACULAR Xmas tree

That's all on my trip to Singapore. I just spent my time shopping and walking and eating. It's amazing how I still had the energy to go to Curve for the New Year Countdown =) Looks like i didnt miss much after all =)